Keep getting jolts of fear
shooting through my arms, my neck,
my body, pointed towards my
lungs and heart, and I micro panic.

I shiver and worry and tense and stress
and I have no idea how to stop
these moments in their tracks, for
they stop me all the same.

I am trying, oh I am attempting,
to go back to the standard, the regular
stuff that I did and performed,
but I still do not trust myself.

Only those supporting do I believe,
they want me to be back, and I want
to be back, but I cannot locate the exit
to my current cell.