Even Tides

My eyes clench tightly,
squeezed shut like gripped lemons,
droplets of juice passing
through creased skin to sea level.
I stand, hands balled,
holding back the ocean,
grief has carried me out past
pier and beach,
the sand that once held my
shaken form but silt parted
between curled toes
that feel the lap of surf.
Adrift I voyage.